Hey my name is Debbie. I was married for 8 years. I was so happy to find out I was having a girl. I only have 1 girl and 3 boys. I wanted another girl so bad.
I was 8 months pregnant and I started to have pain. She was a healthy baby, she was kicking that day but around 1 pm I didn’t feel right, I could hardly walk. My ex-husband took me to the hospital and when I got there she didn’t have a heartbeat and I was bleeding so much. They had to induce me and I didn’t want to give birth to a dead baby. It was my first dead baby, I had to do it. She died on Jan 4th and she was born on Jan 5th at 2:09 am.
After I gave birth something went wrong, I was losing too much blood and they rushed me to the E.R. I was in a coma for 4 days on a breathing tube and received 8 bags of blood. I didn’t get to hold her until 4 days after she was born. I didn’t get out of the hospital until a week, that’s when I had to bury her. They took my uterus, I can’t have anymore babies.
I have depression because I can’t give my new husband a baby. He understands but I didn’t know – after 4 babies I thought she would be ok. My mom had 5 and my sister has 3 boys and 2 girls like me. It just isn’t fair, why do I have to suffer and no one understands what I’m going through. Not only did you take my baby but you took my uterus too.
I look at her pictures sometimes, she would’ve been 10 this year. I just wish she was here. What killed her is placenta previa. I hope I can find someone to talk to about this and that could help me, it feels like as the years go by it gets harder. Please help…
-Debbie
Charlotte, NC
Published 1/17/19